No pain no gain

Did the gym challenge at BS7 today:

1km row: 3m 20s
2.5km bike: 4m 19s
1km run: 4m 5s

Total: 11m 44s

Have to say it was quite hard work but I am bit miffed I didn’t do it in under 11m. Going to have to have another go soon…..


Come a long way

All the lines in the sand, lead me back again
Its clearer now from where I am
And the colours are shifting
The depth of You like an open hand
I know You’re with me

Because You’re making me breathe
You’re all that I live for
You and I are carrying the load

Down on my knees,
All that I hope for
You and I alone


As I sit here very early this morning at my desk with the sun shining and a clear blue sky, it feels a bit like the calm after the storm.

The last few days have been very hard for a number of reasons and I feel like have been in a storm.

I think there are some grey clouds lingering, but its beginning to clear a little bit….

I was just listening to Indescribable by Chris Tomlin. Its one of my favourite songs and sometimes when I feel its hard to praise God, I can always turn to this song:

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

For me the line “You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same” is one I constantly struggle with; sometimes because I doubt that God loves me or has forgiven me…but mostly its because I can’t love me and can’t forgive myself. But I am learning to….

Then this morning I was reminded of the following by my best mate:

“Remember that our circumstances do not change who God is. He is glory,
majesty, omnipotence, omnipresence, love, justice, grace and mercy. Always.

He is the same God; yesterday, today, forever.

The enemy can play around with our circumstances, but he cannot change history…

We may not always feel like praising God, but He will always be worthy of it”.

Amen to that.

Injustice in Lebanon

I will never fully understand Middle East events, however, i have to say that right now i am severely ****** off by the Lebanon crisis.

Take a look at the picture above – how is that a “legitimate military target”?? Its a normal neighbourhood!!

Whilst i don’t condone the actions of Hezbollah, neither should we in the Western World condone the actions of the Israeli government in flattening entire swathes of Lebanon.

Many Lebanese hate Hezbollah and just because there are districts where the latter resides, does that make it morally ok to destroy the entire neighbourhood?

What if the RAF bombed Ireland, destroying Dublin, leaving hundreds dead and wounded and thousands of refugees, because Ireland harbours IRA terrorists. It’s unthinkable right?
Now think of what Israel is doing with the moral support of America and Britain….

Does it make it ok to have “collateral damage” of a few hundred civilians? I deplore terrorism and can understand the Israeli reaction, but it has now clearly exceeded anything pertaining to UN Articles of War.

Why is it always the innocents that suffer? The UN has publicly stated that over 40% of the casualties so far are children. We rejoice (and rightly so) as we see on the news that international families are being rescued safely, but how many Lebanese families do not have the luxury of being taken away to safety?

The Western nations have a chequered history of cutting and running when it gets too hard. Its a trend that has always been there throughout history: Vietnam, Somalia, Sierra Leone, Rwanda, Kosovo. Now we can add Lebanon to the list of shame.

The ultimate shame is that Britain and America won’t publicly come out and condemn the actions of Israel. The USA has a huge Jewish influence in the Senate and Blair is nothing more than Bush’s puppet. They have a vested interest in using Israel to wield its might in the Middle East, because it prevents them from having to get their hands dirty ,and besides which, we need to keep our arms industry ticking over.

We should be telling Israel to stop its completely excessive use of force and establish a peacekeeping force and get aid to those that most need it.

Even as foreign warships come into ports to pick up their people, Israel gives them a window of opportunity, after which they say they are unable to guarantee their safety. How ****ing arrogant is that? That’s a barely veiled threat!

Even as we speak Israeli forces are massing on the border with Lebanon, poised for a full ground invasion. Quite rightly, the Lebanese army has said it will defend its country if that happens and who can blame them?

This has gone far enough -there is too much injustice happening in the lives of ordinary people in Beirut and Lebanon -it cannot be condoned any longer.

How will we explain this to our children in years to come when they ask what we did.
Our reply? We left….leaving Lebanon to its own fate.

America and Britain should hold their heads in shame for their morally bankrupt support of Israel at this time.

Maybe its all part of a pre-cursor to Syria and Iran getting involved? That is not outside the realms of possibility. And if that happens, surely that will present us and America with the perfect opportunity to “establish a new democratic regime change” in Iran?

Its long time since i got this mad about something, but i make no excuses about it….


The last few days have been good and have given me a chance to catch up with a few folks and enjoy some fellowship.

Jim popped round on Tuesday night for some prayer and worship which was really low key but nice, and last night Peggs came round for some grub and some prayer time. That was quality too! We then had last orders round at the Tinto with Crossman, Andy, Sam and Joy.

The simple pleasures of simple fellowship.

For Lebanon

Why can’t we come closer while we fall apart?
These words we trip over before we even start
Drop our defences, before it goes too long
The absence of conflict doesn’t mean that the peace will come

You can’t have peace on Earth until you have it here inside everyone of us again

Why can’t we just talk about this?
Instead we all pretend
We know we can’t give what we don’t already have

You can’t have peace on Earth until you have it here inside everyone of us again

Take your time…
Hurry up, when we all know this all should stop
It’s time again . . .

Wake up, it’s time to think again
This fighting between us has got to end

You can’t have peace on Earth until you have it here inside everyone of us again