It was brought to my intention by innumerable people that they thought I had too many links to non essential stuff, (how are sport and music non essential??) and not enough to other people’s blogs.

So look to your right. Are you happy now?
Honestly, you people want everything to be about you…


Change of tack?

I wonder if I am going in a new direction? Or, rather, I should ask if the Lord is taking me in a new direction?

For those of you who don’t know me that well, I have spent about 10 years in youthwork in a variety of guises and a variety of locations. I even did a degree in youth and community work and theology. Anyway, cutting a long story short, I last did youthwork in 2002 just before I went off to New Zealand for a year. Since then I have had many offers to get back into it but I haven’t really felt it was right.

Last Saturday I was invited back to speak at my old youthgroup at Christchurch Clifton and I really enjoyed it. However the youth environment that once seemed so familiar, suddenly felt very strange. It was as if I finally got confirmation that I have left that arena behind.

The flip side of all of this (and my point!) is that since I came back from New Zealand in Nov 2003, I have had the sneaking feeling that God might be equipping, calling, preparing me to be a pastor – of adults!!! Yikes. This, frankly, scares me even more than youth work ever did but there you go….

So I am not entirely sure how I feel about all of this. Anyone got any thoughts, suggestions, places to run away and hide to?


At present, I feel very tired; frankly more tired than I have been in a long time. The last few weeks of the Vineyard weekend away, the Vineyard ministry trip to New York and then the 15 Peaks Challenge have finally caught up with me.

I feel like I could sleep for…forever. The fact that its been real hot for the last few days hasn’t helped. Neither has my tiredness been improved by my student neighbours allowing me only 2 days of sleep in the last 4 days due to their extensive partying. But I digress…

I was thinking today that despite all of the above its good to stop and count your blessings and so I did. Here they are:

  • My faith in Jesus Christ
  • Good health and mental state (the latter might be questioned!)
  • A good, secure job, which I enjoy and is well paid
  • A good, relaxing house and a great housemate
  • Good supportive caring friends
  • A great prayer group and home group
  • A fantastic church
  • A great family
  • There are many other things I am sure but the above list will suffice for now. I like the fact that I have been able to do many things and work in a number of different jobs in different places. I have been able to travel and spend good time abroad, and have met many people, a few of whom I have become good friends with.

    I like the fact that I am only 5 minutes walk from the cricket ground and only 10 minutes from Bristol Rugby Ground and so I can go and watch two of my favourite sports. I like the fact that I can enjoy simple pleasures like going down the road to Joe’s Bakery and buying fantastic bread and pastries. I like the fact that I can have a great meal and drink with friends down at the Tinto Lounge. I like the fact that I can walk round the corner and get a great curry at The Ganges Restaurant. I like the fact that I can walk barefoot across Horfield Common and enjoy the space there.

    So when you get tired and fed up with the details of the world, take a breath and be thankful and think about what you are made for.

    There is a Mute Math song called “Progress” which I listen to a lot at the moment:

    Every moment in time’s
    Just an answer to find
    What you’re here for
    What you breathe for
    What you wake for
    What you bleed for

    I find myself thinking a lot about the words above recently…

    7/7 – Part 2

    A Letter To The Terrorists, From London
    July 07, 2005

    What the **** do you think you’re doing?

    This is London. We’ve dealt with your sort before. You don’t try and pull this on us.

    Do you have any idea how many times our city has been attacked? Whatever you’re trying to do, it’s not going to work.

    All you’ve done is end some of our lives, and ruin some more. How is that going to help you? You don’t get rewarded for this kind of crap.

    And if, as your MO indicates, you’re an al-Qaeda group, then you’re out of your tiny minds.

    Because if this is a message to Tony Blair, we’ve got news for you! We don’t much like our government ourselves, or what they do in our name.

    But, listen very clearly. We’ll deal with that ourselves.

    We’re London, and we’ve got our own way of doing things, and it doesn’t involve tossing bombs around where innocent people are going about their lives.

    And that’s because we’re better than you. Everyone is better than you.

    Our city works. We rather like it.

    And we’re going to go about our lives.
    We’re going to take care of the lives you ruined.

    And then we’re going to work.
    And we’re going down the pub.

    So you can pack up your bombs, put them in your arseholes, and get the **** out of our city.

    7/7- Part 1

    “Finally, I wish to speak directly to those who came to London today to take life.

    I know that you personally do not fear giving up your own life in order to take others – that is why you are so dangerous. But I know you fear that you may fail in your long-term objective to destroy our free society and I can show you why you will fail.

    In the days that follow look at our airports, look at our sea ports and look at our railway stations and, even after your cowardly attack, you will see that people from the rest of Britain, people from around the world will arrive in London to become Londoners and to fulfill their dreams and achieve their potential.

    They choose to come to London, as so many have come before, because they come to be free, they come to live the life they choose, they come to be able to be themselves.

    They flee you because you tell them how they should live. They don’t want that, and nothing you do, however many of us you kill, will stop that flight to our city where freedom is strong and where people can live in harmony with one another.

    Whatever you do, however many you kill, you will fail.”

    London Mayor Ken Livingstone 7/7/05


    Many have tried and they have all failed. Yesterday we saw again another attempt from those would seek to undermine all we stand for and believe in.

    They will not win.

    We need to stand together, hold a united front and pray for one another. We should also remember that Jesus asks us to pray for our enemies too.

    In the space of 2 days we saw this country united in joy and then united in grief.

    Our spirit is unquenchable and our belief is unbreakable.

    Is it any wonder that this country is known as “Great” Britain?